Never Given
I don't have any idea why I kept belittling my worth. My inferiority complex keeps eating me up. I'm still haunted by my past, that's some people making up lies and malicious stories, also making fun of me. I've already lost my confidence ever since. Even though I look confident, in fact I just pretend it. There's no day I can't stop myself from being more anxious.
I started questioning, what if what they said might be true, that I was nothing and that’s where I belong to be. I’m scared that I might be bad as they said and all I do just cover it up with my efforts to change to be a better person than yesterday.
Don't let those lies become your truth. Anyone do mistakes, it's inevitable. Don't let your mistakes stop you from becoming who you want to be. You can't let your past haunt you so much that you keep thinking about the fear that it could happen again.
Your past, your mistakes, people's opinions of you do not determine who you really are. You define yourself. You can be a bad person but you can also be a good person in someone else's life. But that doesn't mean it can stop you from living the life you hope for. After all, we all live for ourselves, not to please or satisfy others.
It might sound weird, but having so many good things happening to me at once, it's so overwhelming. I always feel like I don't deserve the blessings. I feel guilty even when I receive the compliment. I'd start crying because I've found that to be something touching, the kind of words I always wanted to listen to but never given when it comes for the simplest thing I've done. I always get appreciated if I achieve something big, so if there's someone who celebrates me for even the little things that happened in my life, I'll find it unusual, but at the same time I finally got a break to be myself. That I don't have to work hard to please others and to be accepted.
It breaks my heart to hear that no one has ever said kind words to you and just thinking about that makes me so sad. I'm gonna have to change that. You don't have to feel overwhelmed because you deserve it. You are someone who deserves this and I wanna spoil you with love. If I could give you the world, I would. I want you to receive all the love that you've always wanted but never received.
Do you honestly think that someone can’t love you for who you are? You’re wrong. I’ll always accept you for who you are and I’m sure lots of people appreciate you and accept you for who you are. I’m just thankful that I’m one of those people. Just because you can’t see the good in you, doesn’t mean that other people can’t see the good in you. We see how beautiful your smile is and how your eyes sparkle. We know how kind and how loving you are. You only downgrade yourself because you haven’t seen what the ones who love you see. We see you for what you can’t. We know how mesmerizing you are.
